Im a horrible friend. I really am. Everywhere I go I seem to just fuck something up. Fuck it. Im not gunna whine say how I wanna die. I cant wait 'till Megan comes over on friday with the Mikes Hard Lemonade. I just wanna wash down my problems. I just wish i could have like a month where everyday I was completly 100% happy. I dont really know how that feels anymore.